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The End

September 23, 2019 by Val Neil

I finally finished the latest draft. I’m a pantser and a newbie, so when I sat down to do a developmental edit on manuscript it need a LOT of work. This last draft has taken forever. I waffled endlessly on adding Medea’s POV and when I did, it made some significant changes to the storyline.

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New advice for writer’s block: If you get stuck, write the same scene from another characters POV. You may think you had them down, but their insight will drastically change the tone, possibly even the dialogue.

With the addition of Medea, I’d added a new character loop and made her rules a lot more clear…which was messing up my original ending. I tried to pick up where I left off and it wasn’t working. So I followed my own rule (back up and try something else). I started writing a whole new ending.

It was epic and fun and very Hollywood with a Home Alone vibe. And while the scene was fun, it absolutely did not complete my main character’s arc (cue Sacha Black‘s voice telling me to close those loops), which made it hollow. It worked for Medea, but not for Nikolai. To learn his lesson (finally), he needed the original ending. I found a way to sidestep Medea’s rules and make the original ending work. I will probably save the alternate ending and use it as a reader magnet for my mailing list (it IS a fun scene).

So what now? Well I still have micro editing to do. I kept changing the year, from 1956 to 1953 to 1955 so I have to check the timeline continuity. Gotta check my crutch words (if you’re an author and don’t have a crutch word list, make one!). Gotta find a new round of beta readers wiling to read 128k.

My brain is already springing forward to NaNo. I need to prep for book 2 so I can get it written, hopefully by the end of the year. I’m taking a week vacation in October just so I can write. Not sure how much I can get done in November this year, but I’m going to try.

Copyright © 2019 Val Neil. All rights reserved.

 

Filed Under: Uncategorized Tagged With: author, blog, editing, writing, writing process

Masking the Psychopath

September 16, 2019 by Val Neil

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When I decided to write Nikolai as a psychopath, I wanted to do justice to the neurotype, making it as realistic as possible. As an autistic, I know how much it sucks to see misrepresentation in media. Thanks to common misconceptions, disclosing one’s condition is liable to be met with disbelief, pity, discrimination, or infantizing remarks about our ability to function in public. Psychopaths, on the other hand, can be met with fear and hostility if their condition is made public. They often hide their identities, even online. In interviews, I’ve seen them use pseudonyms and have their faces blurred.

Both psychopaths and autistics utilize masks. Neurotype influences our innate social cues (or lack thereof). Autistic behaviors are often contrary to what is expected and we tend to make social gaffs. Our communication style is different, as are our emotions. So we learn to mask who we really are and how we really feel. Female autistics are generally better at masking. Prolonged masking can lead to autistic burnout.

But while autistics have the freedom to be themselves, at least online and with close friends, psychopaths often don’t. Their behavior baseline is so far removed from what is expected in polite company that they usually retain at least a mild mask, even online and around loved ones.

I’ve already written about the struggle of writing a character with minimal emotions, but likability of Nikolai was also a serious issue in earlier drafts. I had to tone him down a lot. While people love anti-heroes and villains, there are certain criteria that seem to be required for likability:

  1. Charisma
  2. Competency
  3. Tragic backstory

Nikolai is charismatic, but only to other characters and only when he wants something. If he were a secondary character viewed through the eyes of a traditional protagonist, he wouldn’t have the same issues with likeability (you’ll get to experience this later, when I tell Dawn’s story). But he’s not a secondary character and I’m writing in third person deep POV. The readers get to see how the sausage is made, so to speak. While Nikolai doesn’t always act on his thoughts, they can be quite manipulative, dark, and self-serving. Which results in this:

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This was after toning him down. The above remark wasn’t even in reference to one of his worse thoughts, but it came after him outwardly being “nice,” so it was jarring in contrast. This has been a recurring theme.

There’s a screenwriting technique known as Save the Cat, where the hero does something good early on to make the audience root for them (in a cool twist, the American version of House of Cards subverts this trope by having the protagonist kill a dog). I wrote a Save the Cat scene for Nikolai, hoping it would make him a bit more likable. He saves a girl from being harassed by drunks. Good, right?

Well, not exactly. Because the reader is in his head, they can see his motivation, which is less about saving the girl and more about letting off steam by attacking the drunks. He does have a certain protectiveness about the residents of Haven, but that’s because it’s a small town and he has daily interactions with these people. In a sense, they “belong” to him and he’s only taking care of his possessions. So while the scene gives Nikolai a nice opportunity to reflect on his own motivations, those motivations are still self-serving.

Psychopaths are born, unlike sociopaths, which are made, usually the result of childhood trauma. This was a problem initially, because it meant Nikolai had no tragic backstory. Or rather, that his backstory was not a reason for behavior. I planned to have him lie repeatedly (and conflictingly) about his past, keeping readers in the dark until book seven or so. I wanted there to be a lesson in it, that some people are just like this and there’s no “wound” or whatever driving them.

Unfortunately, I had to change my plans. Readers were confused as to why a person would be this way and as a result they couldn’t connect with him or root for him. I started throwing in lots of hints pertaining to his past and suddenly readers were a lot more invested. The implication of past trauma, even if it has nothing to do with his neurology, was enough to change their perception.

What does all this have to do with masking?

Well yesterday I had an epiphany after I wrote a scene in which Nikolai takes off his mask. Psychopaths mask themselves to be more palpable to people. It’s a necessary part of their survival. Without intentionally doing so, I have been effectively masking my character to make him more palpable to readers. Talk about meta.

In some ways it’s good, because it’s given Nikolai more depth, but on the other hand I can’t go as dark/sardonic as I want to without offending reader sensibilities. I may be able to ramp that up a bit in book two, when his competency increases.

Until then, mask it is.

© 2019 Val Neil. All rights reserved. “Masks” photo by Martin Mutch.

 

Filed Under: Uncategorized, writing Tagged With: ASPD, blog, character, craft, masking, nikolai, protagonist, psychopath, psychopathy, social mask, sociopath, villain

Almost Done!

September 10, 2019 by Val Neil

I’m up to chapter 35 of ~37. I’m in the home stretch with my edits! And that is scary as hell. This last pass has been super hard. I did a developmental edit on myself, cut multiple subplots, added in a new POV (along with her subplots)–progressall while trying to stay a few chapters ahead of my critique partners (that didn’t work).

When this draft is done, I need to do a few more sweeps:

  • Knock off To Do list of minor fixes
  • Go through my crutch words and replace
  • Run chapters 10+ through Natural Reader

Once all that is done, I can get my manuscript out to more beta readers while I look for an editor. I need to find one that knows fantasy.

With any luck, I’ll be able to start writing book two for NaNoWriMo, though I hope to start even earlier. In October, I want to fuck off for a week to my mom’s house (6+ hours away) and just WRITE. I did a lot of writing last Thanksgiving and Christmas, because I was sick and able to “rest” upstairs (writing is resting, right?) while other people tended the kids. I need that kind of uninterrupted focus again, where I can churn out 2-3k words a day.

With all the subplots I cut, I already have 30-40k of words going into book two. The next two books are going to interlock pretty heavily and I’m not sure where to cut off certain plot points, so I may have to do the dreaded outlining thing.

Copyright © 2019 Val Neil. All rights reserved.

Filed Under: writing Tagged With: blog, developmental edit, editing, fantasy

The Importance of Accountability

September 9, 2019 by Val Neil

Writing a book is a horrible, exhausting struggle, like a long bout with some painful illness. One would never undertake such a thing if one were not driven on by some demon whom one can neither resist nor understand. – George Orwell

Writing is hard. It’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. As with all things difficult, where one is tempted to give up and run screaming through the streets when you just can’t take it anymore, it’s good to regularly check in with others who are on the same journey as you. Here are some of the ways I keep myself on target.

In-Person Writer Groups

I’m lucky enough to have a pretty active writing community nearby. My town even has a writer’s guild. Search online and see if you can find other authors nearby. Shut Up & Write is a great organization for this. They host regular meet ups where everyone introduces themselves, checking in on current projects, then writes uninterrupted for one hour (or longer). It’s a great way to meet a variety of people who all have a passion for writing.

Facebook Groups (WITH GOALS)

The key here is ACCOUNTABILITY. While there are plenty of Facebook groups dedicated to writing, very few have weekly check-ins. Sacha Black runs a group called 13 Steps to Evil – Villain Masters, which has a regular check-in on Mondays.

Accountability Buddies

Pick a writer, any writer, and agree to check-in with one another a couple of times a week. I had a buddy after NaNoWriMo last year. We communicated via Facebook and entered our word counts every day in Google sheets. The only problem was that it got harder once I started editing and he fell off the writer bandwagon. If I had to do it over again, I’d probably use a different tracking mechanism and add a few more people for increased accountability.

Word Count Trackers

If you’re not stuck editing, I highly recommend a joint word count tracker like I mentioned above. If someone has nothing input for a few days, you can send them a PM asking what’s up.

Critique Groups/Alpha Readers

If your writing is relatively solid, you may choose to share your manuscript as it’s being written. I personally wait until I at least have a complete draft, but I know several people who use critique and alpha readers very early in the process. It works because you have someone breathing down your neck (hopefully) waiting for the next chapter.

For myself, I found this gives me a much-needed boost during the editing process. Editing is rough, and seeing your story land with people is a real incentive to keep going.

Copyright © 2019 Val Neil. All rights reserved.

Filed Under: word craft, writing Tagged With: accountability, blog, editing, networking, writer's block

Writing Pains

August 26, 2019 by Val Neil

Last year I had pain in my hip and legs, to the point I was developing a limp. Sitting anywhere but the couch was painful. I spent several months in physical therapy and figured it was a combination of me sitting too much, being overweight and hitting middle age. I did the exercises and tried to stay away from my desk as much as I could (difficult, given how much I use the computer). Eventually it stopped, in part because I spent more time away from my desk.

Shortly after all this, I decided to create a new writing area for myself upstairs. Downstairs I have a desk and PC. The problem is that I get constant interruptions from the kids (and birds) when I work there. Since the PC is faster than my laptop and only has a single screen, it’s also 99% more likely that I’ll goof off and multitask on my PC. It was also getting annoying to constantly switch files from PC to laptop and back whenever I went to a cafe to write (I do back up, but don’t use the cloud to synchronize Scrivener).

So I created a second work area in my bedroom consisting of a folding table and chair, and my laptop. It’s helped reduce some of my aforementioned frustrations. A couple of weeks ago I sprung for a proper chair to use upstairs. I got the same $99 model I had downstairs from Costco:

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I’m short. Not ridiculously short, but enough that it makes a difference. As soon as I assembled the chair and sat down, I realized my mistake. The chair is too high. Even on the lowest setting, I can’t put my feet flat on the floor. You’d think I’d remember this, having a second model downstairs, but I’d been using the folding table upstairs for months, and when I used by PC downstairs I got used to propping my feed up on the subwoofer. I hate making returns, so I stuck a box under my table to prop up my feet and called it adequate.

Two weeks later, the pain in my leg/hip came back with a vengeance and I finally put two and two together. My pain last year began after I got a new office chair downstairs, vanished when I stopped using the desk and switched to a folding chair upstairs, then returned when I got a duplicate desk chair upstairs. Ergonomics!

Now, I’m not slamming this particular model. It’s a good chair. It’s just too damned high for short little me to put my feet flat on the floor, and apparently that’s enough to really screw up my hip.

Looks like I’ll have to bite the bullet and try to return my new chair.

Filed Under: Uncategorized Tagged With: blog

It’s Been a Week…

August 18, 2019 by Val Neil

It’s been one of those weeks. First week of school. Yay, right? I’ll have so much free time!

Except that I found out that my son was assigned to the wrong school. Two days before school starts.

He’s autistic. We lost a whole academic year in 2017 because his teacher didn’t follow the IEP. His behavior regressed, they stuck him in the most restrictive classroom, and we only got out of it late last year. At the last IEP meeting, we specifically asked that he NOT be placed at that site again, and made it pretty clear that the teacher and the classroom setting were to blame for his behavior issues (that could be a whole post by itself, but I’m not going to go there right now).

They assigned him the same school. They even assigned him the same teacher.

Of course a computer probably assigns kids to the closest school that has the right services, but I had to call and email the special education department (which probably already inundated due to school starting in TWO DAYS) to get him moved.

We got it sorted out and he’s moved, but all the gross feelings I have about this district have been brought to the forefront again. Our district is pretty terrible at educating autistic kids. Again, not going to get into here, but we’ve been fighting to get the right services for years now.

It’s seriously fucked with my mindset. I haven’t touched my own manuscript since like Monday. I did manage to get a lot of critiquing done for other people, because I have the brain power to do that, but not much else. Been going to bed early and waking up stressed.

I normally try to work on writing stuff at least every other day. If I wait too long, the book goes out of my brain and it’s really difficult to get that mindset back. I’m really hoping next week is better, but I have an event to prepare for (not book-related), so my attention will probably be pretty divided.

© 2019 Val Neil. All rights reserved.

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